Lally Kai5 months ago"I’ve been working on healing after a few tough relationships, one of which was abusive when I was around 13. After that, I had another relationship that ended suddenly, and I was left feeling really low. But now, I’m focusing on rebuilding myself and growing stronger. Recently, I got selected for a competition, and there were two teams: a Junior team (which I was in) and a Senior team. I had the chance to interact a lot with one guy from the Senior team—let's call him Suit, because he looked amazing in a suit. We worked together in the technical part of the competition, and he gave me one-on-one advice. I found him incredibly smart, which is something I’m always drawn to in guys. On the day of the competition, my partner was supposed to come with her parents, but I ended up riding with the Senior team. Suit was a little late but eventually came and sat next to me instead of his partner. I don’t know if that means anything, but I felt a little flustered. We all wore suits, and Suit just looked so good—I couldn’t help but notice that. After the event, Suit and his partner were talking a lot, but he made sure I wasn’t left out, which really made me feel appreciated. At the end of the day, we both did well in the competition and got a high grade. After that, I started to feel attracted to him. The thing is, even though I’m usually extroverted and not shy about talking to people, I feel really nervous about approaching him. And to be honest, I’ve developed a fear of love after my past relationships. I’m afraid that nobody will love me for who I truly am, and this fear is holding me back from exploring my feelings toward him. I also want to make sure that my self-respect stays intact. What should I do to overcome this fear and allow myself to connect with him, whether as a friend or something more?" 145
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