Kimber Murray6 months agoI’m 21, and I’ve never been in a relationship, so I’ve never experienced being in love or anything like that. I grew up with an abusive father and have gone through traumatic experiences, such as sexual assault, which led to PTSD. While I think I’m okay now, those experiences definitely left me afraid of touch, and even though I’ve made progress, it still affects me a bit. There was a time I almost dated a guy, but it didn’t work out because he was still in love with his ex, which broke my heart. A few years later, I met a girl who I really loved, and she loved me back, but nothing happened because of our Christian values, and I respected her wishes. It feels like whenever I start to fall for someone, something always gets in the way, and that’s made me stop believing in soulmates. I now believe love is a choice, nothing too special, and that everyone is replaceable. Yet, despite these beliefs, I still find myself longing for a connection, though I’m scared of it.193
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